I stood outside after the Feb EQ, in shock and numb, listening to the neighbour’s toddler screaming a scream that no child should ever have to endure…it will never leave my mind. The first thing that comforted me was a hug from my adult son who had rushed home to see if I was ok, next was a text from my other son’s girlfriend, they were ok…an anxious wait for my husband to reach me was next, that gut wrenching feeling, I had only had 20 years ago with the death of my brother…that night we lit the BBQ and huddled around candles breathing slowly but surely knowing life would never be the same